Traumatised...

I just arrived... Now I have got here I have forgotton what it was I wanted to say! Its taken me three hours to join this site.
I wanted to make this blog so people get to know what it is like in the care system, how your children can be taken away through curroption, and how they are treated. It has proved difficult to go online and speak honestly as I have been threatened with imprisonment if I make certian disclosures; even though I was fully entitled to speak publicly at that time. Part of my story was in the Mail on Sunday.

Now I have reached a certian point in my life I welcome the oppertunity to sit, relax and enjoy my life. I know the score now so I know I can speak without fear of my child's removal or imprisonment.

I have recently had my child returned from care after 18 month's...This is what I intend enjoying, bringing up my child and affording the best I can. I know I'm doing well and this reflect's in all he does. He is a wonderfully, bouncy, confident and happy boy.

I also welcome the point I have reached in my development as I feel a happier healthier person. I can now relax; not suffer with the stress, anxiousness and fear previously experienced.

I have had therapy lately which has been amazing for me in ways, why why why could social services have not done this whilst I was in there care I will never know. I would have 5 children now insted of 1 if I'd have recieve this sooner.
Insted my darling children have been terribly abused and are still being so, by the state.
Thats all I want to write for now, each time I think of my children it creates a dredful feeling within, so much so I get physically sick.